Proverbs 16:32 “Better a patient man than a warrior, a man who controls his temper than one who takes a city.”

Being patient is hard to do, yet so important.

When I am impatient, I start to think things have to come right now, which turns into anxiety that it won’t happen, which continues to frustration, etc, etc.

Today I got really impatient at work with my computer. Then I got anxious that I wouldn’t get stuff done in time. Then I got frustrated, because I just wanted to finish the task and go to lunch.

I was not doing a very good job at being patient. I finally had to have a co-worker close out my task, since the computer program froze. Then I just decided to restart my computer & go to lunch.

While I was on lunch, I talked to God about what I need to have done & how I was feeling.

He told me to take it easy & slow down. He said don’t get in a hurry when I got back from lunch.

Essentially, He told me to be patient. Which actually helped so much. I calmed down.

When I got back from lunch, I was calmer. The program I needed to work started working. Another program decided to take its sweet time about things, but God was right there with me. I stayed calm. I was able to work around it until it decided to work correctly & the day ended well.

God is amazing in how He works. His ways are the best.

I know that it is hard to calm down from frustration/anxiety. Talking to God helps get it out.

And if we listen to what He says back, a solution becomes evident. Sometimes that solution is to be patient. That can be hard to hear, but when we take it to heart & follow His lead, it is helpful.

Your Worth

Are you worried about what others think about you?  Or do you not feel worth anything?

God tells us over and over again not to be afraid. We are worth so much to Him. He sent His Son to die for us (John 3:16) because he loves us so much. We are worth dying for.  Do you believe it?

Matthew 10:31 – “So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.”

God looks after each living thing. We are worth more than the animals & everything around us.

You are His favorite.

You are worth it, because God made you so.  You are fearfully & wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14)

He created you. Yes, you.

You are beautiful to Him. You are valuable to Him. Nothing can take away your value to Him. He treasures you.  No matter what you’ve done or what’s been done to you.  You are priceless.

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If you don’t have a relationship with God & you want one.  All you have to do is ask him.

Romans 10:9 – “That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”

I could write a fancy prayer for you, but all you have to do is talk to him.  He is knocking on the door of your heart (Revelation 3:20).  Answer the door and invite Him in.





I thought I would write an update on where we are right now in life.

Mandatory overtime is over.  After 4 months, it is finally over.  I have now had 2 normal 40 hr work weeks.  I actually feel like I can function again.  I feel more rested.  I was also becoming depressed and anxious, which was probably part of the exhaustion.

Now I’m focusing on other aspects of my life that have taken a back seat for a while.

First of all, more time with my husband, when possible.  He has been having knee and back problems, which means physical therapy & chiropractor.  God has blessed us with great doctors, physical therapists, & chiropractors in this process.  They are good at what they do, as well as working with us on the financial end of things for the part that insurance doesn’t cover.

My husband, Josh, is also having to work to make up hours he is missing to go to these appointments, so he doesn’t use up all his paid time off.  He also has started an online travel agency, so he is working a lot on that.

We are also Tupperware consultants.  So it is time to focus on doing that a little more.  I just made a demo video for a facebook Tupperware party we’re having this week.  I made a Steak & Queso Enchilada Bake.  That was actually a lot of fun.  It was my first attempt at doing it on my own.  Josh is usually my cameraman, but he had something to do this evening, so I figured out a way to do it by myself.

I’m feeling like we have more time for things, but less money to do them.  But we know that God will take care of us.  He didn’t bring us here to leave us.  He has a plan.  I know He does.

And I, of course, have my blog to write.  I feel like I have more time to write my blog. I’m hoping to be able to write more often and spend more time writing.

I can’t wait to see what direction God is taking us in.

Blessings to all of you!


Unconditional Love

I have noticed a theme this week.  God seems to be reminding me that He loves me no matter what.

Sometimes I get so involved in work or commitments that I start to identify with accomplishment. I forget that God loves me regardless of what I do.  He loves me even when I make mistakes.  He loves me even when I try to do things myself instead of letting Him take care of it.  He loves me when pride gets in the way.  He loves me when I feel horrible about myself.

I’m reading a book currently called “Grace Walk” by Steve McVey.  In the book, he tells a brief story about a parent who tells a child to be good so that God will love him.

Many of us have probably felt that way, as if we had to earn God’s love.  But that is not how God’s love works.

The Bible says, “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”  Romans 5:8

All week, it seems that God has reminded me of His unconditional love in some way each day.

He is reminding me that He loves me always.  That He loves me beyond my doings.  He loves me because that is who He is.

1 John 4:16 – “And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.  God is love.  Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.”

He loves me because He created me.

Psalm 139:13 – “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.”

Nothing can separate me from God’s love.

Romans 8:38-39  “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

This is true for all of you out there.  God loves you!  He always will love you!  There is nothing you can do or not do that would change that.    His love is unconditional.  It isn’t something you can earn.  It is a gift.

Many of us have had earthy experiences that deter us from thinking this way.  Whether it is abuse, divorce, abandonment, failure, depression, anxiety, & so many other things that can get us to thinking how worthless we are.

But if we renew our minds with what God’s Word says about us.  If we read the Bible to see what it actually says & not what someone has told us it says, we will be amazed at how much God loves us.  Look up the scriptures I’ve mentioned above.

Romans 12:2 – “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.  Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – His good, pleasing and perfect will.”

I have dealt with a lot of depression & anxiety in my life due to things that have happened in my life.  What has helped the most is reading God’s Word & learning what He says about me.  Because what this world has to say about me ultimately doesn’t matter.  What God says about me does.

This is what renewing your mind is.  It is simply learning what God’s Word says & changing your thinking to line up with the Word of God.  It takes time, but it is worth it.

I’m not always perfect at going to God everytime I feel down, but I know that God is patient with me & He loves me anyway.



God’s Timing

I was reading about Lazarus tonight.  (John 11:1-44)

Jesus & Lazarus were close.  When Jesus heard that Lazarus was sick, He stayed where he was for 2 more days.  He knew it was the will of God to wait.

I can only imagine though, that His fully human side would have liked to go to Lazarus & heal Him or be near Him.

Ultimately, He knew better than all of us, that miraculous things happen in God’s timing.

We tend to want to rush in & take care of the situation in our own strength.  I know I’m guilty of wanting to do everything myself & just take care of it.

I have learned many times that God’s timing is best.  He knows what needs to happen.  If we wait on Him, miracles will happen.

Because Jesus was willing to wait, Lazarus was raised from the dead after being in the grave for 4 days.  Many people believed in Him that day.  So by waiting, He did so much more than just raise Lazarus from the dead.

What are you needing to wait on God for?  There is a miracle waiting for God’s perfect timing.



I was sitting here watching Star Wars – The Clone Wars (the animated series).    For those who have not seen Star Wars, it is a series of movies that focuses on good vs evil in space.  I used to be shocked when people said they had never seen any of them, but I understand it isn’t everyone’s cup of tea.

This thought came to me, while I was watching one of the episodes.  God is extremely underestimated.  Both by Satan & by Christians.

Throughout the movies, the dark side always underestimates the Jedi.  When things don’t look good for the Jedi or at least from the view of the dark side, they always think they will come out on the winning side.

Darth Vader & others have said many times, “You underestimate the power of the dark side.”

Then soon after that, the dark side loses.

I see how God is highly underestimated.  Satan thought he could kill Jesus, which only ended in Satan’s defeat, when Jesus rose from the dead.  That defeat still stands today.  Jesus has overcome the world & Satan (John 16:33).

Satan also thinks he can defeat God’s children.  But that is impossible, because God is for us, therefore no one and nothing can be against us (Romans 8:31).  Even if we pass away from this earth, we don’t really die, we just change our address & we are with Jesus forever.

There are people who underestimate the power of the Jedi & put too much fear in the dark side in the movies.  They are even sometimes leery of being on the side of the Jedi for fear of the dark side.

There are times when we as Christians underestimate God.  We don’t see a way out or things don’t look good.  But God is fighting for us.  He is right here with us in the middle of it all (Psalm 23:4).  Satan can only cast a shadow & his power is nothing compared to the power of God.

The Jedi must use the force to defeat their enemies.  We must trust in God & believe that He will come through.  He is always right on time.  No matter what Satan tries to do, God is with us & He is fighting for us.  We just don’t always see the fighting.  When the time is right, we will see the outcome.

Now I’m not saying that Star Wars is biblical or anything.  But sometimes God shows me things in a storyline or something in a movie or book.  I am learning to write those things down & share some of them as I feel led to do so.






Tortoise & The Hare Revamped

Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing. – 1 Thessalonians 5:11

A good illustration of this was found today on google.  There are always pictures or short video illustrations when going to google.  The video today was a version of the tortoise & the hare, but told a little differently.  They were in a skiing race.  When the race started, the hare was in the lead & the tortoise/turtle was going really slow, like in the original story.  In this rendition, however, the hare looks back & sees the turtle not going as fast, so he goes back & puts the turtle on his head & skiis on with him.  They cross the finish line together.

In the original story, the hare is full of pride & takes a nap during the race knowing that he will win.  Then when he wakes up, he is surprised that the turtle won.

What if we were more like the revamped version & looked back, put down our pride & went back to help others.

Our pastor, Pastor Rowdy, was talking about pride this morning in service.  It was an amazing message.  He used the following scripture, among others.

‘Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ‘ 1 Corinthians 13:4

What would our marriages look like, if we were a little more like the revamped tortoise & hare story, as well as the Scriptures mentioned in this post?  What would our friendships or relationships with our family look like?  What would our relationships with our coworkers & other people we know look like, if we put down our pride & encouraged each other?  What would happen if we built each other up instead of tearing each other down?



Looking To Him

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I have been reading this book as part of a women’s Bible study at my church.  It is a powerful book.  I highly recommend it for both men & women.  It is not gender specific.

As I was reading the chapter for this month, there was a profound thought that I wanted to share. It is at the end of  Chapter 9, which is about gentleness.

I have been rereading Hudson Taylor’s Spiritual Secret, in which the missionary talks about the exchanged life, exchanging your life for the life of Christ in you.  He discovered that being faithful is not as much in trying to be faithful, but in looking to the faithful One.  Put gentle in there: Being gentle is not so much in trying to be gentle, but in looking to the gentle Savior – knowing Him deeply and intimately.  Being gentle is gazing into His face until you become more and more like Him.  God’s Holy Spirit will fill us with gentleness as we contemplate Him.

This statement got me to thinking.  I have reread this paragraph many times.  I try so hard to be exactly the way I need to be & fail so many times.  When it’s all in looking to the One who is the things I’m trying to be.  All of the fruit of the Spirit could be inserted into that statement.

Galatians 5:22-23 says, “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.  Against such things there is no law.”

He is all of these things.  If I look to Him & contemplate Him, who is all of these things, I will become more like Him as I continue to do so.


I Will Not Be Silent

Psalm 30:11-12,  “You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent.  O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever.”

These verses remind me of all that God has done for me.  He has brought me back from despair on more than one occasion.  He has delivered me from many horrible circumstances.  He has saved me from all my wrongdoing.  He has promised me a place with Him in heaven.  I am so grateful.  He is so much more than I could ever proclaim.  He is my God.  I will praise & serve Him all of my days.  He has never given up on me, even when I have given up on myself.  He is patient & kind.

I can’t get enough of Him.  When I don’t make time for Him in a day, I feel the emptiness & my soul cries out for Him.

I can’t be silent about my God.  He is everything to me.  I can’t live without Him.

The most glorious part of it is that I get to praise Him for eternity.  I am free to live for Him & give Him praise!

I need & want more of Him every day!

The Way Out

Exodus 14:14 – “The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still.”

Moses said this to the Israelites before crossing the Red Sea.  Then God did a miracle.

Sitting and waiting on the Lord can be hard.  We see circumstances looming much like the Israelites saw the Egyptians coming after them.  We see no way out, but God does.  He divided the sea in two, so the Israelites could walk through on dry ground. Then, once the Israelites were across, He drowned the Egyptians that pursued them into the sea.  And ultimately, God gained glory (v 17).

He makes a way where there is no way.  I believe that today.  There is away out of our circumstances that only God sees.  If we trust & rely on Him,  He will direct our paths in such a way that we will know it is Him.

Lord, I know you see all the situations we’re in.  You also know the way out.  Sometimes it’s up, down, over, under, around, & sometimes through.  Thank you for being with us in every circumstance.  You are there with the solution no matter the circumstance.  Help us to rely on you.  We love you, Lord.