The next writing prompt in “God Is My Happy Place” is
“Are you holding on to offense? Can you let go of it today?”
The biggest grudge I hold is against myself. Of course, I live with myself everyday. So I know all of the large and small mistakes that I make and I hold them against myself. When I focus too much on that, I start getting into a depressed/anxious mood. I forgive myself and do well for a while, then a week or two later I pick it back up. Dwelling on all the stupid stuff I’ve said or done. Or even not said and not done. When I think about it, it seems ridiculous to rehearse it all the time. I mean, why am I wasting my time with it? I could be so much more productive and happy, if I’d let it go and rehearse what God says about me. Yet, I get stuck sometimes.
My pastor was talking a couple of weeks ago about giving myself some slack and not making myself earn my own love. It is so true. I am truly misearable, when I am so hard on myself.
I believe I can let go of it today. I may have to let go of it several times a day for a while, since I tend to pick things back up again. But I believe this is something I can start working on. I need to learn to love myself better and Trust God.
So, what does loving myself better look like? Well, a few ways come to mind.
First, the one that we have been talking about is to give myself a break. Knowing that I will make mistakes, forgive myself and then don’t dwell on it. Remind myself what God says about me and move forward.
Second, take care of my body better. I am the temple of the Holy Spirit, so I need to take care of it better. As most of you may know, God and I have been working on this for the past 16 months. God has removed 84.4 lbs, while He is teaching me to have a better relationship with food and Himself. I have learned that overeating only hurts my body.
Third, learn that it is ok not to live up to everyone else’s expectations. I can’t do that anyway. Every person has a different idea of what they expect that I should be doing. It’s more important to focus on what God would have me do.
There are many more ways to love myself out there. These are just 3 off the top of my head. Feel free to drop your ideas in the comments for loving yourself.
I hope you all have a blessed day!