April 26, 2021 marked a year since I started this weight loss journey. I got my one year chip at Celebrate Recovery (CR).
God has removed 73.5 pounds.
I have learned so much this last year.
One thing I have learned is that I have to have boundaries with eating. No boundaries, for me, is chaos and ends in despair, because I have made food an idol. Without God in His rightful place, life is not really happy or satisfying. For God is really the only one that satisfies.
‘For He satisfies the longing soul, And fills the hungry soul with goodness.’ Psalms 107:9 https://my.bible.com/bible/114/PSA.107.9 NKJV
This verse sums up what I have learned this last year and what I will be leaning into on the next year of this journey. There is no food that can satisfy my soul or heal all my wounds or take care of my every need. Only God can do all of these things and fill me to overflowing.
I have also become quite aware that this journey is not easy. Like most people, I want an instant change. I want to be at my goal weight yesterday. However, it is a process. Everything I have learned and will learn cannot be learned in an instant. And to lose weight that fast wouldn’t be healthy.
Recently, my husband got me a cactus. A purple cactus that I have been wanting for a few years now. When he brought it home, I was so excited, but it isn’t purple yet. According to the nursery, they all start green and then change as they grow. Now it is mostly green, with some purple around the edges and around the spikes. I can see the beginnings of the purple, but it isn’t like what I want yet. I can’t wait for it to be purple. Now I would have liked for it to be completely purple when it was brought home, but that’s not how it works. It is a growth process.
This journey I am on, is also a process. Overcoming food issues, or any other addiction for that matter, is not an overnight process. There is a lot of work and growth to be done. For me, I know this is only the beginning of the transformation, but I can see the process is working.
I want what God wants for me. That means I have to trust Him and His timing. I want to lean into His presence and be completely satisfied in Him. That is where I want to be.
So stay tuned for the continuation of this journey.
This next picture is a close up is a close up of the cactus. Hoping that you can see some of the purple.
Next is a picture of it in the pot we bought for it.