‘Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses [who by faith have testified to the truth of God’s absolute faithfulness], stripping off every unnecessary weight and the sin which so easily and cleverly entangles us, let us run with endurance and active persistence the race that is set before us, [looking away from all that will distract us and] focusing our eyes on Jesus, who is the Author and Perfecter of faith [the first incentive for our belief and the One who brings our faith to maturity], who for the joy [of accomplishing the goal] set before Him endured the cross, disregarding the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God [revealing His deity, His authority, and the completion of His work]. ‘ Hebrews 12:1-2 https://my.bible.com/bible/1588/HEB.12.1-2 AMP
I can’t believe it has been 5 months, since I started this weight loss journey, overcoming food addiction. God is doing a great work in my life and a lot has happened. As God is removing my physical weight, all the other things that need to be dealt with are being removed. Not all at once, but He’s carving it off a little at a time.
All this weight represents all the fear I’ve been hiding behind. Fear of failed expections, not measuring up, not being liked/loved, failure, abandonment, life, of being a burden. All the excuses I’ve used. All the mess. It represents me running away from God. I have been too proud to ask for help. I’d even say self-centered. This barrier between me and God.
And as God peels back the onion, I am growing and becoming more like Jesus. My focus is changing. As I get rid of all the unnecessary weight/sin, I am better able to serve the Lord, loving Him and others better.
There is always something to work on. It all seems overwhelming at times, but I work on one thing at a time, adding something to the mix periodically as a focus in my recovery.
Recently, impulse spending has been added to the list of things I’m overcoming. The impulse buying that I am most succetable to is that I think I need all the cool things that I see, which gets me into financial trouble. It has also contributed to our debt issue. I have to learn to live inside my means. Debt is hindering me from doing everything God wants me to be doing.
And I know, as I go to God for help with this new issue, and I go to Him with the lies I’m believing and the feelings I’m covering up, there will be less of me and more of Him.
Lord, I’m sorry for letting all the things in. Thank you for changing me. Thank you for bringing all of it to my attention. Thank you for being in my life and working on me. I want more of you. I always need you. Make me into the person you designed me to be. I want to please you. I want to be who you want me to be. I want whatever you have for me.
Refiner (feat. Chandler Moore and Steffany Gretzinger) – Maverick City Music (I own no rights to this song/video)
Praise Report: ***I’m celebrating victory over food addiction/overeating for 153 days. God has removed 44.2 pounds from me. I’m celebrating victory over impulse buying for 15 days*** 😁💜😁💜😁💜🎉🎉🎉