God Is My Happy Place #48

The next writing prompt in “God Is My Happy Place” is

“On a scale of 1 to 10, how beautiful do you feel today?”

I would probably say about a 2 or a 3. I can probably count on one hand the amount of times in my 44 years that I have truly felt beautiful. I know in my life I have tried to look appealing to others before and still not felt beautiful. I have lost a lot of weight before and not felt beautiful, then gained it all back plus some. Once upon a time, I used to think that in order to be attractive or beautiful, I had to have men desire me. That’s the furthest thing from the truth.

Whether I am beautiful or not is not for this world to decide or judge & really not even for me to judge. Because we humans have flawed judgement sometimes. According to the world, I am not beautiful, because I weigh too much or some other superficial reason. And even if I lose all the weight I believe I need to, that is not what makes me beautiful. It is a gentle and peaceful spirit, which is on the inside of me.

‘Your adornment must not be merely external—with interweaving and elaborate knotting of the hair, and wearing gold jewelry, or [being superficially preoccupied with] dressing in expensive clothes; but let it be [the inner beauty of] the hidden person of the heart, with the imperishable quality and unfading charm of a gentle and peaceful spirit, [one that is calm and self-controlled, not overanxious, but serene and spiritually mature] which is very precious in the sight of God. ‘ 1 Peter 3:3-4 https://my.bible.com/bible/1588/1PE.3.3-4 AMP

I know that God sees me as beautiful, because He made me & that is all that really counts. I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

‘I will give thanks and praise to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. ‘ Psalms 139:14 https://my.bible.com/bible/1588/PSA.139.14

‘My frame was not hidden from You, When I was being formed in secret, And intricately and skillfully formed [as if embroidered with many colors] in the depths of the earth. ‘ Psalms 139:15 https://my.bible.com/bible/1588/PSA.139.15 AMP

As I go through this weight loss journey, it is about becoming closer to God and finding my inner beauty. I have been hiding behind the fat/food. This fear has had its way too long. I am learning to believe God’s Word & what He says about me. I am learning to lean on Him instead of the trappings of this world.

You Say by Lauren Daigle. I do not own any rights to this song/video.

***Praise Report: I am celebrating victory for 97 days over food addiction/overeating. Weight loss total to this point: 32.9 pounds***

3 thoughts on “God Is My Happy Place #48

  1. What a wonderful post! This world can be so hard on all of us. There are so many standards that we believe we have to meet in order to be accepted as beautiful or even loved. We buy into these lies and it crushes our spirits. I’ve struggled with feeling beautiful my entire life due to my muscle disease and the accompanying deformity cause by scoliosis. I have to remind myself of the same things you wrote about – true beauty shines from the inside out. Perfect song for this post, as well. One of my favorites! And by the way, congratulations on your 90 day victory! That is a reason to celebrate!!

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