Inside Out

A friend of mine bought me a coloring calendar. A new page to color for every month. Coloring is one of my hobbies. I even went out and bought gel pens for this one, since it was glossy paper. I usually use colored pencils, but those don’t really show up on glossy paper.

Anyway, as I was coloring, I felt like God was showing me something.

When I color, I start in one spot and work out from there. In this one I started in the middle and am working my way out. As I was doing that, I felt like God was saying that He works on me that way. He starts on the inside and works His way out.

Sometimes He is working on small things & sometimes big things, but they are all important to my growth. Sometimes one thing must be dealt with before something else can be dealt with. God knows how to work on me. He made me.

Sometimes things take longer than I think it should. In the picture I’m coloring, I’m only getting a little done at a time. I was thinking it would go quicker. The gel pens seem to take a little longer than colored pencils. But it’s also a big picture to tackle.

When God works on my life, which He is always doing, it’s not something that gets fixed over night. A lot of issues that I deal with, at least, took a while to become that way and they will take a while to recover or heal from.

I don’t usually show my work before it is finished, but i believe it is a good illustration of a work in progress.

I am not a finished product & won’t be until I reach heaven. He is working in me to perfect me. As you see in the picture, there are lots of places to color in. Some spaces are bigger/smaller than others. It will take some time. When I am finished it will be ready to display on the wall. But until then it is one step, color, or box at a time.

Much like my life. I must take one step, day, hour, or minute at a time.

I am God’s masterpiece. When I am finished, I will be ready to be in God’s physical presence.

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Ephesians 2:10 NIV

Also, the following song came to mind. I pray it is a blessing to someone.

Even in the Mess

When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly.
1 Peter 2:23 NIV

This verse really stuck out to me and it has stayed with me the past few days. It’s talking about how Jesus, with all that was happening to Him, through all the beating sand the crucifixion, didn’t take revenge or threaten anyone. He put Himself in God’s hands.

If I am to be Christlike, then I need to trust God with my life & put my life in His hands. The battle is His anyway.

Even when things look like a mess, trusting God is the key.

It’s not easy. When I’m in the middle of a mess, all I can see sometimes is the disaster instead of the One who is bigger than the disaster. I start relying on myself instead of Him.

Each and every time that I realize I’m trying to rely on myself, I need to entrust myself and my issues to Him and allow Him to work, even if it seems scary to give up control. He knows what He is doing.